Tuesday, December 27, 2011


I can't even describe my main feeling that this year will be over.. maybe relief. It started off good.
found out I was having another baby and while we kept it a secret we were faced with
overwhelming stress. Our Maggie was in a car accident and died. To me it just wasn't possible. I spent most the day
talking with her over facebook. and then she was gone. she was like Brian's baby sister. I can't imagine losing two
people in my life in a cat accident.

I was able to finally tell people I was pregnant. But I started to feel sick. just not well in a way I didn't think was right. I had gestational diabetes, preeclampsia (again) and too much amniotic fluid. Payton was finally born only to find she needed to be in the NICU for 9 days and
step down for 4. Finally we get her home and Cole hits his head so hard that night. An ambulance ride and 5 stitches later. I was
scared this time he would have a head bleed. (he hit his head in July too and an ER trip there)
on my 35th birthday (10 days after the incident with Cole) I'm riding in an ambulance from an urgent care because
Caden oxygen level is only in the 80's! He had pneumonia and was breathing 60 min! he ended up on PICU! 5 days later he was home, but not after a lot of deals with God. the first night he was so bad I thought he was going to be intubated.
I finally thought it was over and then Grandma! something wasn't right! she was getting tired and weak. I brought her to the hospital and she was admitted. the next day she died! it was so sudden I don't know what happened, though I do know. I feel I don't understand it! Yes she was old but was fine and then just gone. my mom and I were with her when she died. Brian's grandfather hasn't been doing well as of late.
we have had a rough go of things. We had a good Christmas with just us and the kids. they are all healthy now and hopefully stay that way. hopefully the new year will mark a new begining of good things to come!

Payton Melissa was born on 9-19-11. Named for Walter Payton and my sister Melissa who died in a car accident.
she is doing so much better now! she is so beautiful and for 3 months old, very chatty and loves to smile. her smile is so amazing!
and her eyes! I am so much in love and so jealous of her and my sons for their beautiful eyes and long thick eyelashes!
I only pray for the best for all of them! they are truly the loves of my life! God has blessed me even through the stress I can see that!

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Long Time

With facebook being so easy to update, I haven't written here in a long time.
The boys are now 3 months shy from being 4. Cole is an endless story teller. Caden is a man of action and silliness. In about 2-3 months from now, we will be adding a new edition to our family. A little baby girl! :)

We have been so incredibly busy with everything going on in our lives. Mostly with the boys. They exhaust me. They are opinionated and stubborn. They have a great sense of humor and love to laugh and be silly. I love that about them. They are so active too! They are becoming baseball pros (working on hitting without a tee and catching and throwing) and are already as of last year, bike riding pros! We haven't spent a lot of time near water, but maybe over the winter we can work on becoming swimming pros. We have a YMCA right across the street.

We have traveled a bit more with them since I last posted. We have taken them to Boston to see Daddy run the Boston Marathon. We have taken them to Florida to Disney world. We are contemplating a trip to Vancouver/Seattle area maybe sometime next year. Not sure yet. It is a place I would love to see and I think they would love!

The boys are very excited about their little sister Payton, soon to be arrival. They hug and kiss my belly daily. They tell Payton they love her. I only hope they continue this when she arrives. :) Her name will be Payton Melissa Whittaker. Named for Walter Payton:) and my sister Melissa of course.

Hopefully I can post again soon after Payton is born. :) WIth lots of pictures!